Complete Paradox

I have lost myself in my past,
As my present is a chaos ,
So many people in the present
Are trying to help me but no use
As i am no more in my present…………….
Since you made me feel
That my presence is a trouble
To you ,my dear .............

I know its because of you
But what to do
I love you…….

Physically in the present
Feeling the pain of the chaos
Mentally in the past
Enjoying all the beautiful moments
Thinking of all our tryst
Rejuvenating internally
Getting old externally
Both pleasure and the pain
At a single same time
A small smile in the face
As well as rolling tears in the face….